Lies We Tell New Parents

So...recently - as seems to happen in waves every now and again -

recently, a bunch of my friends have found themselves the proud and fortunate stewards of very small and very typically needy human beings.

Some people call them “kids”.

I like to refer to them as “the adorable organic matter whose singular intent is to focus their efforts on your current identity, assumed life purpose, and tendencies toward selfishness and then grind them all down to smooth edges and a burnished patina.”

That's what I like to refer to them as.


Anyway, right now my friends-with-new-babies are deep in the trenches of intense hands-on parenting. Those first hard corners of Who Am I Now? are being ground down.

And not without a lot of sparks.


A few of my friends have been posting on their blogs and on Facebook that, gol-damn, this Mother/Father Of Small Children thing - for all the priceless moments of preciousness and soulful pangs of “I’d jump in front of a bus to save you, Child, I love you so much!” - this Parent Gig also comes with a surprising number of hours and days and even weeks when the physical, emotional, spiritual, biological, philosophical, psychological, nutritional, scatological, and motivational demands of living with a knee-high insane person (and I mean that in the sweetest way possible) make you reminisce for  the relative zen calm of other identity-altering life experiences.

Like middle-school gym class. 

Or your weeks in  Marine boot camp.

Parenting can be exhausting.

With my first child, I remember other parents handing out well-meaning platitudes to help me get through the incredibly surrealistic first year. They would say things like

“The first two weeks are the hardest. Just soldier-through these two weeks, your hormones will settle down, you won’t feel simultaneously weepy and stabby, your nipples won’t look like raw hamburger…at two weeks post-partum, it all gets SO much better. This is the worst of it.”

And they’d say things like

“At three months most kids don’t have colic anymore and they stop screaming and just hang in there until the third month and it’s all rainbows and kitty cats and fairy princesses farting glitter, and gurgling, giggling babies from there on out.”

And they would look me straight in the eye and say - without smirking or even crossing fingers, mind you - they’d say

“Just wait till the baby starts sitting-up and then walking and then talking and oh my goodness, once they become more like little people and less like pooping, screaming, drooling flounders, well Mister, a whole world of wonder and adventure will open up and deep breaths, keep the faith, the hardest part of parenting is almost over.”

Other parents would say these things to me.

Words of help. Words of hope. Welcome words that did the desired job of getting me through the next sleepless night, well past the next colicky day, beyond one more week of losing every piece of identifiable former me as I stumbled and troubled, running hard through the first months of the Mother Host-Adorable Parasite initiation ritual.

Looking back now, knowing what I know about the truthiness of One Day This Parenting Thing Will Be Easy (SPOILER ALERT!: Some things do get much easier; other aspects of parenting get way harder; puke always sucks), I have to say that I am still grateful for the lies these other parents told me.  It was better than nothing.

However, I now believe the truth is always best.

I think that in the end it’s best to be told right off the bat - from the very first episiotomy stitch, from the first projectile vomit that leads you leaping to Google to figure out what the hell just happened - that this parenting gig is not a simple sprint to one or two developmental milestones.

On the contrary.

To massacre another metaphor, parenting is a years-long marathon with hills and blind turns and shin splints and lots and lots of poop and vomit.

It should also be seriously but gently explained to new parents that just when you think you’ve seen the finish line ahead of you and you grab that cup of Gatorade and squish it over your head in sheer relief and victorious victory, that’s when you’ll realize that what you're seeing up ahead isn’t a tape to break through. And that shimmering glow isn’t heat mirage on the blacktop.

What’s up ahead is a shoreline.

And a lake.

And on the shore of the lake is a bike.

And being a parent means that now you have to ride the bike across the lake.

And it’s four in the morning and the child who you previously promoted as being your “good sleeper” has since decided to have nightmares about Zombie Elmo every night for the past three months, and now you have to bike across the lake with that screaming, clawing, sleep-deprived, adorable-really child.

You’ll do it, of course. You’ll do it because you have to. You’ll do it because you want to. You’ll do it because of biological imperative. You’ll do it because eventually, if you don’t, your kids will write revealing blog posts about you or videotape you sleeping in your underwear and then upload it to YouTube and without remorse or a sense of humor.

Most of all, you’ll do it because of some new definition of “love” that you’re still figuring out with your head, but a version of love that every bone in your body seems very confident in understanding.

That’s good. Really.

What’s not good, really, is the helpful verisimilitude of those people who keep stringing up the faux finish lines.

In the end, it’s not a big thing. You’d figure it out on your own, eventually.

But if someone would have been unflinchingly upfront about the bike and the lake and the Undead Muppet Terrors, I wouldn’t have been so cavalier with those first few cups of Gatorade.


That first year (and the year after...and the year after...) is when I really could have used a drink.

I also might not have considered myself a sneaky, shameful cheater if I would have walked a mile or two here and there during the initial marathon. (Apply that metaphor as you like; my personal favorite at the time was my ridiculous guilt over giving a kid bottles of formula so the all-night breastaurant could close shop and I could sleep more than 15 minutes at a time.)


Because this parenting thing is actually a triathlon that keeps repeating.

A triathlon, at least.

Maybe it’s a quintathlon. Or an octathlon. Who can say?

What I do know is this:


There is no finish line, so pace yourself.

Anticipate the bend in the road.

Accept the detours.

Learn to bike on water.

Stay hydrated with the beverages of your choice.



And...sunblock is useless.

Enjoy your burnished patina.

(Like how I forced those metaphorical puzzle piece together? I have a degree. Don't try this at home.)

 Year three of being in the moment and mistrusting the mirages.

24 comments:

foolery said...

Your degree is showing. : )

Awesome, and agreed. And the puke just keeps on coming (9-year-old threw up in a bag in the car on the way to the D.C. Natural History Museum two weeks ago. I set foot in downtown Washington carrying a bag of barf).

Fear and Parenting in Las Vegas said...

Great post. I always tell new parent that it's always hard. With each new stage comes a different kind of hard and when you look back, you can't believe you got through the last round, but you did. And THAT is what gets you through the next round.

MommyTime said...

What I do know is this:

There is no finish line, so pace yourself.


Truer words have never been written. Thank you.

lemony said...

Now that I have teenagers, one of whom is a BOY, this -

"...your kids will write revealing blog posts about you, or videotape you sleeping in your underwear and then upload it to YouTube and without remorse or a sense of humor."

- is my greatest fear.

Tara Anderson said...

So what if I've actually finished a marathon? And a triathlon? Does that mean that parenting will be easy?

(Asked by someone who does not have children yet. Obviously.)

Jozet at Halushki said...

Foolery,

How did you get past Homeland Security with a bag of puke? ;-)

KimMomOfNine said...

Yes, yes, and yes. and with each new addition comes a new and different marathon; sometimes the two or three (or nine...) races converge but quite often your parenting ass is running all over the damn place.

but it really is worth it. that's the advice/wisdom I try to hand out...it really is worth it.

Jozet at Halushki said...

Lemony -

Just make sure to always have the good underwear on...not the wash day gotchies. ;-)

Jozet at Halushki said...

Tara,

I haven't tested my metaphor myself, but I'm sure someone who has will weigh in.

I did once have a surgeon slice open my finger without anesthetic. That was much easier than the day I had to clean up head-to-toe poop art twice in one afternoon. ;-)

Jozet at Halushki said...

Kim,

It is absolutely worth it. And after two kids going on three, the wisest advice I ever got (other than "just love them") was to switch from thinking of parenting as a one-on-one to instead thinking of it as "zone control". That helped immensely.

Nine, you say? The woman we bought our house from had seven kids. She told me that after the fifth one, you could just keep adding on...the fifth is the hardest. I felt like a dolt trying to deal with the chaos of two, lol! You're writing a book, right? You need to write a book (in your spare time and all). :-)

OmPowered said...

Yes. Yes! A thousand times yes!

I try like hell to warn off the swoony I-want-to-procreate'ers. They don't listen. I am blunt - I include Zombie Elmo and his band of merry, green-rope-drooling Sesame Street characters. Still, they don't listen.

What do we expect, really? We didn't.

Jozet at Halushki said...

Om -

Too true. It's just one of those "you had to be there" things. ;-)

JM said...

Thank you for the clear reminder not to sleep in my camping underpants unless I am actually camping...without my family.

Thanks also for implicitly pointing out that the smiling, beautifully dressed, tidy-haired, always-cheerful mother of two who last week told me that "after three months, it gets much easier" (or was it two months??) was chock-full of horseshit.

Jozet at Halushki said...

JM,

Well, I don't know about being tidy-haired or always cheerful. I wasn't that way before kids, so it's hard for me to judge. Maybe she's got a secret...or maybe she's a wizard.

Or maybe she's just really good at the Parent of Young Kids thing. I was really good at the infant stage by my third kid. However, the 3 1/2 - 4 1/2 year old stage always takes me out a the knees. 7-9 year olds I adore and they make me feel like I'm living a charmed life. 11 year olds, on the other hand, remind me almost daily that I have no idea what I'm talking about, and they have the advanced vocabulary and debate skills to convince me that they are right.

So, you know...ages and stages. Maybe once her kids are teens, the tidy-haired woman will shave her head and start adding greens to her brownies to get through the day. Who knows? ;-)

Anonymous said...

Yes, smart 11-12 year olds will make you regret breastfeeding them and all the damn fish oil pills you took while pregnant.

Sarah in deepest, darkest Lomellina said...

" 11 year olds, on the other hand, remind me almost daily that I have no idea what I'm talking about,"

Looks at nearly ten year old son. Looks back at comment. Realises that self has been lulled into a faux finish line sense of security.

Panics slightly.

Jozet at Halushki said...

Sarah,

LOL! Well...maybe he'll be like my friend's 11yo and be kind enough to remind you of your learning deficits with a gentle smile and a pat on the head (instead of the semi-exasperated sigh I sometimes get from my 11yo.) :-)

Katie Alender said...

You could bottle this post and sell it as a new brand of birth control!

I always figured the swooniness was a biological means of entrapping people until it's too late to think again.

Juli Ryan said...

I'm often caught up in trying to get to the next phase. Zen parenting is so challenging.

Pocklock said...

Fantastic post. And SO true. There are SO many lies you're told and as a new mom, so many times I was forced with the urge to crotch-punch someone as I held my screaming, acid-refluxy baby for 8-hours a day.

And then it got better.

And now it's something else. It's always something else. Parenthood changes you forever. It's a life-sentence. One we love. One we repeatedly sign up for when we have more kids. It's the best punishment in the world.

xo

Jozet at Halushki said...

"It's the best punishment in the world."

Exactly. :-)

xxoo

Mr Farty said...

You'll be glad to know the vomit stops eventually.

No, wait.

I just remembered Little Miss Farty's 21st birthday party. The morning after. Holding her hair back for her while she puked on her shoes.

The little angel.

And no, I wouldn't change that for anything.

mindofgrace said...

Oh, thank HEAVENS that someone is willing to admit it, and to write it so well.

The only thing that's fabulously true about parenthood is that nothing ever stays the same.

Thanks for reminding me that I actually am biking across water, so that kinda explains the exhaustion. And exhonerates the hydration.

Bless you for this post.

Briana said...

Parenting is indeed a difficult job... but I think with the help of your friends, relatives and family you can make it all the way. Being a parent is a gift, a gift given by good and no matter how hard it is to be parents behind it we are still smiling and thankful for having such a wonderful kids.

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